The oddly normal life of Clorie

Today is my baby girl Hannah's second 9th birthday. I decided to not let her turn ten...so she will have birthday number 9 over and over until I'm gone. She was in the nutcracker play, then we went out for dinner and then ice cream. She's got birthday money burning a hole in her pocket too! This morning I also started my first dose of humira. I felt very sleepy afterwards...I'm glad I had the whole day off of work. Hopefully its not as bad with my next injection since it will only be one,  not two. So its been a pretty busy day around our house...birthdays plays Dr. Visits.....I need to dye my grey hairs.

Teenagers are so unappreciative.  This is what I was told today when I said don't ask me to do anything for you if you can't follow my rules. I never do anything for her anyway.  Really? In the grand scheme of things here lately I'm thankful that I still have my children here to hold and love. That however does not mean they don't make me completely crazy. I can't wait though until they are grown and I can make their kids rotten and sit back and laugh.

Promise, my middle daughter, brushes her teeth...then takes the toothbrush to her room with her. She doesn't leave it in the bathroom for fear a sibling will dunk it in the toilet!

Or I hope to hell you learn.  This role of parenting has gotten the best of me here lately. I'm trying my hardest but often times it doesn't seem quite good enough.  All I know is you have to make mistakes to learn lessons.  Its hard though seeing your children make dumb mistakes...wishing you would have taught them better, even though you know you have...hoping they learn and trying to work past the issues and move forward with your life together as mother and daughter. You never know how your going to react or how you should react until it comes down to it.  Then you spend time hoping you handled it right and never really knowing.

Siblings are crazy. The love hate relationship just dumbfounds me, an only child. If I had been spoken to by someone like my kids speak to each other.... I would have been in my closet crying my eyes out all.the.time.  I can understand how being an only child or having siblings can change who you are as a person. The few times my kids get along, I have learned to cherish. The times when, while Bailey poops Hannah sits out side the door and they do knock knock jokes... when Destiny and promise go to the mall together, and hang out. The stories that they share that I don't know about.... its a crazy relationship. I always wanted a sibling... just like my four all wish they were the only child.

 Yesterday I ran around a bit with my mom, and the kids... Bailey told us about a dream he'd had the night before, he drove by papa Dons and he was in his back yard, stopped Bailey to get a hug and chat.... I was instantly jealous. I wished that had been my dream. I wish I could really have that. Just one last time, just enough time to make sure he knew what he meant to me all these years, and how much he taught me. Just a quick hug and chat.  The other day at Hannah's award ceremony (all A honor roll GO HANNAH) I saw a family member who asked about my mom, and her new husband... Then mentioned how she'd never met Don and from what she'd heard she was grateful for it.  This hurt too, but both times I was able to keep myself emotionless. So last night at home, something made me think of Don and there I was a blubbering mess. Tim has no clue what my issue is and I can't seem to say it out loud. I miss Don. I don't know why I can say it online but not out loud. I

Never gets less embarrassing. I was helping my mom put a desk together, her husband was sleeping... He came to ask her a question not knowing I was there, stood in the door way butt.ass.naked. Lol! Just as bad as when your a kid! I had the day off work today, tool promise to the orthodontist and got great news that her dang tooth is finally making its way down where it's supposed to go! Once that's down she can get some rubber bands on and get everything aligned finally! I am super excited!

 First my teenage child, her boyfriend and the new job caused drama over the weekend. They were fighting, she was going to quit after one day, I had to text her off the cliff she was on for whatever reason... She's just fine now and said she was happy she chose to keep said job... Pretty sure she was never really planning on quitting anyway... All that squared away.  Then the mid teenage child and the laundry situation. It manipulated itself into the next day as well when a hoodie was lost and I mentioned it might be with other clothes since other clothes were in there ya know, since she did the laundry ON MY laundry day... which started her off again, yelling after her sister was in bed. Angry that I had brought it up again. I told her she was grounded this weekend to which she exclaimed "So I never go anywhere weekends anyway" well guess who's being super nice to me, and being an angelic child because a friend has a birthday sleepover this weekend? mmmm hmmm.  B

 Apparently "I have ONE day I ask you to NOT do laundry and that is Sunday" Translates into "DO YOUR LAUNDRY ON SUNDAY JUST TO MAKE ME CRAZY" and then when I get upset over it... Me saying "One day a week I have for MY laundry, dont pick THAT day pick one of the SIX other days of the week" Translates into "I hate you why don't you go kill yourself for doing laundry on Sunday"  I guess that because by the time I was a full blown teenager, I was also a MOM I didn't have time to worry about myself so much as my children do. I must say the bipolar on again off again happy sad woe is me crap really gets on my nerves.  Anyway such is life. I spent 200 dollars on groceries and I am sure in 2 days there will be "nothing to eat". I got the house (mostly) cleaned up and ready for another week. Destiny got her schedule at work and it looks totally doable! Life is going good, I can't really complain (too much) I can always find some

 I am horrible. I will get on here and gripe or complain until I am blue in the face but when my kids are AWESOME then I never speak a word of it.  So let me just say my kids are AWESOME. I had Hannah's parent teacher conference, and was not only told how smart and helpful she is in class (which I already knew) but that she catches on SO quickly to the new lessons that the teacher is going to start teaching her somethings and letting HER teach it to the class, and help them to better understand it! She is simply amazing. Her benchmark scores were all in the advanced areas, well above meeting standards. That little girl is smart.  Promise is doing so well with Volleyball she's always going to practice and working hard. She doesn't complain at all and she is just amazing too. She has all A's and B's so far this year as well which surprised me with all the extra things she's doing I am impressed that she can handle it and keep up with her grades. She's also

whoop whoop. Lord knows I only have like ONE friend in Real life unless you count my mother, which I don't. LOL. I mean I love my mom and she's my sounding board for a lot of things, but at the same time I cannot talk to her about EVERYTHING!  So this past weekend, boo its over, was a good one. I worked Friday, went shopping with my mom Saturday morning, took some photos Saturday afternoon, Saturday evening I made a new friend. Sunday I worked made tamales and a mess of the kitchen which I did not clean up last night.  All in all a very nice weekend. I am OFF all next weekend, the big boss, told my boss he was working me to death apparently. See my boss certainly has more hours than me, but if you count the time we are both actually on our FEET and WORKING I bet it is pretty equal in hours and I am glad maybe that it sounds like someone noticed that?  So anyway next weekend I hope to relax, and read a book and clean the kitchen and the cabinets and maybe my bedroom clos

 Normally the only things I blog about are things I have to bitch about. Only because I know that no one really wants to hear it, and if your reading my blog, and you don't want to hear it, well you can stop reading! This way I am not offending anyone too much.  So here is my rant of the day.  Your an ADULT. You have a job. The job has a schedule posted. READ IT. After you have read it, COME TO WORK on time. NO ONE from work should have to call you to wake you up so you can get there on time. Its BULLSHIT. There are things called ALARM clocks and there are ALARMS on cell phones. Not to mention your scheduled at ELEVEN in the afternoon, and have two young children so you should already BE awake by then takings care of, and spending time with said children. Ok Rant OVER!  So the little neighbor girl Adrina is over, She is 3. She's the most freaking adorable child ever created. She asked for some grapes and then didnt eat them, fed them to the guinea pig... " can I hav

 Do you ever have a dream, and although its something in your right mind you KNOW would never happen... You wake up and wonder a while, if it really did? I had one of those dreams the other night. Strange how some dreams out of your reach to remember, and some stay in your mind long after your awake.  In my dream, I was at work, it was Friday night, and Tim was off (all this is in real life as well last Friday) So Promise gets home from her volley ball practice and she's complaining of a knee injury. Coach said she should probably see a doctor. So Tim calls me at work, and I tell him I am working there for I cannot do much about it. He offers to take her in instead, and I agree if its bothering her badly that would be best.  I come home after work, and ask Tim what was the deal with Promise's knee. " oh they amputated." He tells me. They WHAHHHHH???? They don't just AMPUTATE when one complains ONE DAY about a sore knee!!! What the hell are you talking about?

Is always on moms shoulders it seems. I've complained about it before but well when is that ever enough? I have to keep complaining right! I work. No I don't have a full time and part time job.... But when I work I work hard and when I get home, I seldom have time to relax. Let's take today for example: got up helped get kids around. While Tim took them to school I got ready for work fed the dogs and picked up the trail of things left behind by the kids... Went to work. Did all my work duties there, after work I had to run to Walmart and get a backpack and various other school supply they still need. Once I am finished at the store it's time to pick up a kid from school. I wait in a long ass line wishing I had peed at the store. Get kid go home. Once home I Let the dogs out make sure the kids get a snack get things for dinner set out, unload dishes and reload dishwasher oh and I clean the cat box too. Start getting the chicken ready and realize I forgot a

Bailey boo decided that this year he wanted to attend "normal" school. Not the small Charter he's gone to ever since kindergarten. His sisters have all stepped away from there as well in Middle School, and I guess I thought it would be better he switch first year of middle and be "the new kid" along with everyone else. So after he went back and forth a few times, "normal" school it is.  Now I am thinking he is regretting his choice. Its only the fourth day but he sits alone at lunch or with people who just sit there for a place to sit. He does not talk to anyone and does not have friends. This did not happen with the girls, but they are both "social butterflies" Bailey mentioned that "at least he had friends" at his old school... Thing is he would always say he didn't have friends at his old school, even though teachers and other kids were always like HI BAILEY. So I am unsure if he really doesn't have friends, or does her

 My customers. I have some of the best in the world I am certain. Ive had regulars everywhere I have waited tables, but having been at Jims SO long I have REALLY REALLY regulars. Even people who have not come in over a year, remember me and I them, so they feel regular even when they aren't really anymore! :)  So many times Tim has told me that if I were to quit "no one" would come in anymore... I just laugh him off. I mean yes, there are people who love seeing me there, and I know that, but I am not the ONLY reason they are there, pizza, salad AND a drink for 6.00 thats another top reason!  Today though this couple comes in. They normally ask where I am when they come. Today was no different. When they were about to leave, the man called me over, and told me he just HAD to tell me something, even though I was probably to busy to hear it (I am NEVER too busy to hear about myself being great)  He said the past few times they had been in, I had been off work (must of

 I love summer weather, the lake, sleeping in... All that.  What I don't love is my kids home during the day without much supervision, Food being eaten out of boredom, and coming home to a disastrous home.  So Hannah started school last week, but today was the first day all four were in school. It was lovely. Getting them all up, and they were all ready too! No falling back asleep no complaining. Got on a nice new outfit looked all cute and had some breakfast.  The morning would have been perfect had it not been for a Miss Hannah fit. She couldn't find a "thing to waer" in her stuffed full of shirts dresser drawer there was apparently not one item that was not too baggy or too tight or made her look "fat" Gah. Ended up in Tim having to get the other kids to school and come BACK for her, leaving her tardy to class, Only the second week and she's not only missed 3 days of school, but now she's tardy too!  Anyway back to them all being gone all da

 Your gonna want this back, your gonna wish these days, hadn't gone by so fast... These are some good times so take a good look around. You may not know it now, but your gonna miss this.  Its true. Every now and then, take time to step back and realize what all you have. What you might not have tomorrow, even what you have today, its going to change and could become something else. The love you feel, the way your wanted and needed and appreciated. The way YOU want, and need and appreciate. It all changes with time. Its crazy.  I can remember when my kids were little. I had several little kids at once. 4 children in 7 years? Yeah they were close together. I remember having to take all four to the store. The tantrums, the please moms, the baby is hungry and where can I hide to feed hers, the boy lost his binki where is the kind he likes open it now, buy it on the way outs... I never once back then thought to myself  "One day my kids will not want to go to the store with me,

 Everyone screws up. Everyone breaks the rules, and everyone makes mistakes. I think it is what you do about it, once you realize you've screwed up, that makes you an honest person, or not. So if your caught, admit it, apologize for it (if your sorry) and if you agree to not do it again, then don't. Live up to your word and you can still be respected right? NO ONE is perfect and I don't claim to be by any means. As a teenager, I made mistakes, as a mother I have made even more. All I can do, is try to improve through each mistake and become better. I'm trying and that says something!  Hannah started school today. The others go back Monday. Wow. Bailey is no longer in the little "safe" charter school. He wanted to try out "regular" public school this year. Promise has done much better, you can see it in her benchmark scores for sure! So hopefully Bailey thrives as well. He's ready for a change and I felt that this year, would work better than ne

 Well almost anyway. This week my kids went to camp! 6 full days. They are still gone in fact. They come home tomorrow at noon! I can't wait to see them. I was seeing and hearing mirage children at the grocery the other day... Thats how much I miss them!  The first two days they were gone Tim and I had the day off. We went to Eureka springs. It was nice to drive by something and just STOP and go look just because, or to just TAKE OFF and go when we wanted to. We had lunch both days and it was delicious! We had a nice time together as husband and wife, instead of mom and dad.  Of course Destiny was home, well the few nights she spends AT home she was here... OF course she tried to make up for the other kids being gone playing her teenager games she plays... We got over all that and last night spent some time together too, and it felt nice to just sit and chit chat with her. Looking at her talk, I could still see the "baby" she used to be in her now grown up face. Its c

 It doesn't have to be a fancy dinner, or a dozen roses... Sometimes its walking into the bathroom to bring him the shampoo, and seeing I LOVE YOU written in the steam on the shower door that really makes me tingly.... Even after 10 years, he can melt me. I am a lucky girl.  My babies leave for Camp SUNDAY. That is 2 days from now. I won't even be there to see them off. I didn't realize what time they would be going and I am scheduled to work! Super bummer. They cannot take a phone and are not allowed to call or text FOR 6 DAYS!!! I know they are going to have a blast, in fact, I wish I could go!! I will miss them, although its going to be AWESOME to see my house STAY clean for 6 full days!!!  Oh and on that bright note, school is just 17 days away!!! This summer FLEW by this year! I feel like we got out there and did some stuff this year, it was a fun summer. I cannot wait for the school year though hee hee!

Today was a day at work. Everything seemed to be going just fine, until a customer complained about the price of his take out lunch special. Upon realizing the other girl misunderstood his order I was on my way to making it right with him.... When she exclaimed well HE SAID small salad bar... And slapped the now corrected sized box down in front of him. I shrugged her off and said something about the customer always being right.... If he wanted a side but said small BIG DEAL fix it an move on.... So I voided his card, and was about to charge him the correct amount when he grabbed up his card and said "never mind, cancel my order.... I don't want to deal with YOUR ATTITUDE" he said as he pointed in Leah's direction. Wowsa. So I wrote on the cancelled ticket the reason the customer had stated. I asked the kitchen not to make the order as it had been cancelled. Then I was called a bitch. Yep. I was told that she hated working with me and I was a bitch.... This set T

 Oh wow. So it takes all kinds to make the world go around we know this. Everyone is crazy, but some people show it more... This man shows it a LOT more. We have a customer, a homeless man I am going to presume by the look (and smell) of him. I have heard stories of him coming in, and the odd special requests but never witnessed it first hand, until Friday night. Get some popcorn this is a doozy!  So I see a man I believe to be the crazy man, walking down the street, and ask my boss for a brief description of said crazy dude. Yup. Pretty sure that is him. I say "I hope he comes in, I want to see this shit first hand." I would later eat those words.  I see him walking up to the door and I run back to tell my boss that I don't want to wait on him... My boss in turn RUNS (he is not the running type mind you) back to the cooler and literally hides. I am the only other person IN the restaurant, and its my JOB to do this so I go out there and witness the madness first hand.

Or at least it seems like you were. Once my mom and my dad, dad through adoption, separated it was almost as though I was not really all that important anymore.... Part of that was the miles apart, but an even bigger part, was alcohol. Again with alcohol ruining, and ending lives. I hate it. I know my dad came to visit once, I was 15. On his way back home he was arrested for drinking and driving. He told me he wouldn't be visiting again. So that was that, he was now a wanted "felon" in Indiana, I guess for not paying his fines, and he didnt want to risk going back to jail. Understandable I suppose. The following year I rode a bus with. My one year old daughter to come and visit and introduce dad to his new grand daughter. It was a nice visit. It was obvious though that my dad had many issues. Starting with alcohol, mixed up with a money hungry, live in girlfriend, who stated his money was her money and her money was her money.... She went and bought steaks and wat

Luckily an urgent care clinic was open today, and takes our insurance.... Because three of my four kids are sick. So after an exciting morning of pizza place I got to haul their sick butts to the clinic and pay a doctor money to tell me what I already know, is wrong with my kids.... They should know by now that I am "dr Clorie" What made me certain the boy was really not feeling it, was when his girlfriend called and said she was home after nearly a week away, bailey didn't suck it up to go out and play... He stayed in bed, in his underwear. Poor baby boy. Promise has strep, which I knew.... Bailey has an ear infection (no?realy) And Hannah is likely just a cold or allergies.... But if it seems to turn strep like, I got an rx for her as well. I told my co worker I'd work for him tomorrow.... I'm such a nice person "a ray of sunshine on a cloudy day" a customer actually said that, about me! The other day you ask ask my boss he was a witness to i

Bailey told me last night that he might possibly go to prom now when he's in high school.... This little girl has him head over heels y'all. She better not break my baby boys heart, that's all I gotta say.

I got the day off today which was nice considering I was called in and had to close yesterday. I had every intention of having a nice relaxing day.... Bit I had planned on being somewhat productive, that didn't happen. I slept until eleven, waking before that just once to let a furry critter out to pee.... When I finally did wake up I colored a picture and drank iced coffee. Somewhere around two I poured a bowl of cereal and ate it. Tim took the kids to the pool and I got the home button to work on my iPhone (somewhat I have to push really hard) I sat around watching tv. Washed Nd dried three loads of laundry and then had Tim go and get subway for dinner.... I mean why end a day like today having to actually prepare a meal right??? Tomorrow I have got to get around to doing some things like oh... Cooking cleaning grocery shopping.... Yah ill get all that done tomorrow.

My boss says tonight Clorie have you met jr? No. Clorie this is jr. Jr Clorie. Now we've met! I reply as I walk out of the kitchen.... "if Clorie asks you to do something you do it, it's easier than listening to her bitch about it later.... She's the real boss here I just get the title" I feel the love. Totally.

That is a long ass time. As of yesterday I have been married to Timmy for an entire decade. Amazing. I love him more today than ten years ago. I look forward to that live growing even more over the next ten.

 I need to get a sign for the door. I HATE when sales people come (unless they are selling food lol) I always hate to just say NO and slam the door in their face. My kids end up getting all up in the conversation and wanting whatever it is... Like the last guy wanting to sell us an alarm system "For free" I told him my husband made all the financial decisions and he was not home... The kids are all DADDY WONT CARE mama YOU PAY THE BILLS. Gotta love honesty.  So anyway some salesman came the other day and I played the same card... He said he'd return to talk to my husband and I another time. I figured he would not return... Well today a knock came at the door. We had just put our new trampoline together and so we were sweaty and gross and about to get in the shower. Tim was in nothing but sponge bob boxers.  I heard him open the door and he simply said "Im not interested. I already have everything and I don't have any money" I totally want a door mat or

 Today my baby boy turns eleven. He has himself a girlfriend. He rides the big coaster at Silver Dollar City. He fought cancer and kicked its ass. He can do anything he sets his mind do. He is so sweet and caring. He loves animals and babies and other people. Bailey is a special child and I am lucky to be his mama.  Happy birthday eleven year old big boy

 They say if your child is ready to leave, and be independent that you have given them the wings to leave the nest....  So is it supposed to feel as though they cannot WAIT to get the hell away from you type of spreading??? Because that is the type I am feeling.  I know my teenager loves me, with all her heart. I gave her life, I pay for her cell phone and I feed her when she's home. I am also very aware that after 2 weeks with her dad, away from home, that when she gets back in the GLORIOUS state of Arkansas she will not be thinking of my loving arms and spaghetti salad... Its the boyfriend she has probably told 100 times I love you, I miss you... I Got a couple, but they were followed by "heh" Or something leading me to believe she didn't really mean it.  She's already threatened to move out, more times than I can remember... She is checking off days in the calender to the day she turns 18. Until Freedom, although I give her quite a bit of that. She LONGS

 Oh how is it that my teenager is away at her dads and yet STILL Finds a way to make me crazy? Yep shes that good. 12 hour drive distance between us and still annoying the crap out of me.  In life, in school, at work, at home, on TV at the movies... Theres always going to be someone, or something you don't like. Its how life works. You can't run from those people or hide. You have to deal with it!!! GAH!  My son has a crush, and found out that the little girl likes him back as well. He's MY BOY and this is not setting well with me at all! LOL! He cut flowers from my rose bush yesterday to give to her. He will make a great husband one day.... If I ever let him leave home :)

 so today I had to work, again. Some lady called and asked if I could fax her a menu... "No ma'am we do not have a fax machine, but our menu is available online" Well I don't have a computer OR internet she replied. WHAAAAAT? LOL!

 I love that my two oldest girls share secrets together that their best friends dont even know about them.  I love the sound of my kids getting along, laughing, and sleeping (when they are not snoring)  I love singing to music blasting in the house, when I am home alone  I love that my dogs act like they have not seen me in DAYS weather I was gone 2 hours or 2 minuets I love that I work in a fun, and laid back atmosphere  I love my husband. I love that this up coming month I will have spent 10 years married to him. I love that I can tell him anything, and he loves me. I love that every time I have needed him, he's been there. I love that he loves me. I love that he even loves the me that is a huge bitch.  Today at work, a couple came in and somehow when leaving got on the subject of marriage, when he asked how long I'd been married, and I answered almost 10 years, he actually looked impressed... He then told us he'd been married 53 years in July. The other girl

 I wonder how long it will be, until seeing a yellow truck does not remind me of him.... Obviously longer than it has been so far. Everytime I see a yellow truck I catch myself looking to see if its Don.  I made tamales this weekend. They were great, Don would have loved them. He would have asked me to make more, given me filling ideas and called me "his little chef" He probably would have bragged to everyone about how good I made them, and eaten so many he'd of felt sick. I can only hope he was there with me, somehow helping, and that is why they turned out so well for a first try.

 I was at the store, Pam called me and I told her I would call her back.  So when I went to call Pam back, I had to go into the contacts, to find her number (no I dont have it memorized) Right above Pam Wheeler.... Was "papa Don". So now, I continue to cry. I wish I could hit call and have one last conversation. One last recipe, one last moment.... It would be awesome if Heaven had cell phone service.  So my girls are switching rooms. Hannah will now get her own, and Destiny and Promise are going to share, which in reality means Promise will have her own room as well, because Destiny is rarely home. We'll see how all this goes. I have a feeling something will happen and we'll all have sticks up our butts at some point, but Promise has already moved Hannah out (while we ran to walmart) so I guess its a done deal. Heh.

 Everyone who knows me well, most likely already knows that. If you don't know that, then you don't know me all that well! I am a bitch. I admit it. I care, but I care in ways other than most do. I don't want to hear you whine or cry... I'll get you something to make you feel better, but don't make a big deal out of it, or I wont do it again... Just take what I gave you and STOP WHINING. lol.  So it does not help that this has GOT to be my PMS week. I am certain of it. Then dumb shit has to happen to get me aggravated. Every time. I guess I am hyper sensitive to annoyances during "this time"  Lets see what has bugged me the past few days:  Damn kid at work, who ALWAYS walks on his tiptoes.  Customers at work standing right in front of the SEAT YOURSELF sign, asking "oh do we just seat ourselves?"  Customers who come in 99 times a year, always order the same thing but always ask for a menu to order that SAME THING again. If I CAN REMEMBER

Hey mom did u know 60 is middle aged, bailey asks. Well, no....I thought 40 was middle aged. Nope its 60. Because the oldest you can live to, is 120 after that, God thinks you've lived too long, and you die. So yeah, 60 is middle aged. So between that and my pointy boobs at work, its been a good day. Apparently I'm only one quarter aged, with pointy boobs.

So I have missed blogging. I have actually not been doing anything here lately. I think I am depressed. I was thinking about it last night, and I have figured that must be it.  First off, I am getting fat. I want to eat crappy stuff, or well I don't want to cook at all. I have not cooked real meals, baked, or tried a new recipe since I found out about Don passing away. I realized at home I don't really do anything. I am not sure what I do with my time once I get here, I get the kids and all, keep the house picked up (Not clean) but I don't watch TV, I am reading a book, but not very quickly. I have not even been playing the games on my phone that I play.  So to get myself out of this funk I have GOT to make time for myself, make a grocery list and menu again... Just snap out of it already right?  This week seemed to be going by so slow, and now I realize that tomorrow is already Thursday and then its the weekend, the weekend I have to work. So the weekend too, shall p

Until I got to work. Isn't it funny how that works. I miss my kids, and my husband like crazy when I am gone, up until they are with me for 10 min or so. HA!  This weekend was one of the craziest I have had. Teenagers. 2 more years for the one. 2 more stinkin' years. She's counting down the seconds, and I am starting to count them down as well. I love her, but Lord have Mercy she caused me more grey hairs this weekend alone than I have gotten all my life.  Then I get to work. I am told that others think I do not do enough at work, or that I get away with so much. Because, I once again, forgot to put up my damn pasta noodles I cooked for pasta salads... So someone else had to do it for me. I have done many things for other people, yes I might have bitched about it, but I did it.  So sorry that after a slammin busy lunch where afterwards I emptied the entire ice bin, dumping 10 gallon buckets of ice/water out 15 times.... I forgot to put up a collinder of boiled pasta 3

 I must say that the death of Don, is probably my first really big death of someone close to me in my life.  Yes my dad died, but I was only 2 and I don't remember him at all, and things are just so easy to deal with when your that young. My mom said at his funeral I yelled "BOAT BOAT" when they brought out his casket. After the service I picked a Bible up from the dash and said "Jesus said we all be OK mama".  Then of course my grammy when I was 10 or so. I remember my aunt calling and telling us she'd passed away that morning. I remember crying and missing her like crazy, still do of course. She lived 9 hours away though and it almost just felt like we didn't visit as often, or ever, not like she was really gone. I do remember regretting not speaking to her over the phone. We all knew she was sick and I was afraid I would cry while talking to her, and make her scared. So I didn't say anything. Of course again, when she was sick and in the hospi

Ran a short errand with my mom and grandpa today. My grandpa was telling one of his stories about how he'd kick someone's butt like this or that....then mumbles, no I won't. My mom asked him why he always says what Hell do, then says he won't....he says I dunno....I guess saying it is just as bad as actually doing it....or that's what the book says. Guess that's why I've lived so long...he's still working on me. I'm just a sinner. Poor old grandpa. I think he's lonely and bored. His chats are all one sided though because he can't hear worth a damn,  I love him though. Sins and all!

Or well jog a little and then nearly die...haha. day 1 of couch to 5k. Easter dinner still in the tummy, and.shoes I've never warn... Well I didn't do so great. I did however, do it. I went outside and tried. Baby steps. Again. I feel so fat, bloated. I realized that, until tonight this is the first real meal I've.cooked since learning of Dons passing. Not sure if it just coinsided with my laziness, or if its just coinsidence. Either Way fast and "convient" foods are Making me fat. Fast. I feel horrible and I want to feel fantastic. Happy Easter to everyone. Thank you Jesus for what you did for all of us on that cross.

<p>&lt;p&gt;Meat filled? Is that meat? I'm wondering what cut of meat...Hell what animal did it come from? </p> <p> When I was a kid, I loved this stuff, and now mine do. I have not had it in years, and having eaten a bowl for lunch, I can admit I have not been missing out.

The facts of life! Thats right. Totally quoting an 80's sitcom! LOL.  Its true though, you have to take the good with the bad. Because life does not just give you good. If it did, I would have nothing to bitch/blog about now would I?  I have 2 teenage daughters, enough said if you have your own. If you don't let me just say, act now so that you never will... ha!  Last week the girls had their father down for a visit. That was nice. He took them to his hotel and kept them, which was REALLY nice, for both me and them I am sure. Its been far and few between with his visits.  We all went to the zoo yesterday and got our sex education as well. We learned how to do it "turtle style" and saw a monky's manhood. Got to love the zoo!  Oh and Tim was FINE with leaving MY window open for the camel to stuff its head in... but when a camel came to his side it "Looked mean" and so he kept his window up. What a baby! LOL!

We've had some issues with our produce deliveries at work recently, and I've complained. So our produce came earlier than usual and my boss was commenting. I said it must have been that they didn't want to hear me complain anymore. His words of wisdom: "the squeaky wheel gets the grease....and I'm sorry to say it, but your one squeaky wheel."

Friday night at work. I had a little boy and his dad at my table. They got.some stuff off of the salad bar while they waited for pizza. When I went over to ask how everything was, the little boy held up the plate pictured below.... And said, "I don't really like them grapes."

 Today has been a really rough day for our family. We just found out that my moms' ex boyfriend (of like 14 years) has passed away. Not only that, but he passed away 18 days ago and were just now finding out, not from family but from a random stranger basically. That sucks.  Let me start near the end I guess. When my mom broke up with Don, it was not because he harmed her or was hurtful or a bad person. She put up with a lot of things from him. His drinking being a big one. She was no longer in love for whatever reason and I respect that. I think her staying was maybe worse than her sticking around when she no longer had the feelings he thought she did.  When my mom left Don, she did so quickly. She just up and left, got things that were important to her, leaving the rest for him. She told him she wanted to remain friends, but he called 12 times a day and cried, or begged for her to come back, she just stopped answering her phone. Then he started leaving message after message a

I don't even know what day I am supposed to be on. To Hell with it. LOL. So teenagers. Someone shoot me now. One moment alls well, the next she's calling my husband a douche. I wouldn't have dared call any adult a name like that.... Two nights ago pms hit I was mean and hateful so I hid in my room. I come out to a cleaned up kitchen. She can be so good, and so helpful when its really needed. She is certainly growing and maturing so much in the past year. I am really proud of who she is becoming. Then she comes home (i let her stay out an hour later)  bitching about a soggy sandwich, and calling my husband a douche for "looking at her like that" really? Dude. So thats life right now. Teenagers. Promise is hitting teenage too. Can't walk home anymore....attitude from Hell....and all I keep thinking is how I still have 2 more, and they will only be better at this, since they are getting free lessons. YAY!

Today was SO spring-like. Trees budding, flowers bloomed, 70 degrees, blue skies, sunshine. Sent the kids outside and they played together, nicely. The hard of hearing boy heard an icecream truck miles away....after a long hunt, dollars in hand, they gave up and came home empty handed... But more awesome, the icecream man song always means summer! Oh, and daylight savings spring forward....DIDN'T EVEN MESS ME UP THIS YEAR! WOOT GO SPRING! AFFE

When your family, and with each other day in and day out without breaks....all those bad habits get in your nerves....and because your family you voice your opinions. It's just not usually pretty.   Life was rough today, but in the end it all turned out better. Although now that its bedtime....well were back to square one. Loving life baby.

With ghenghis grill. I swear its an addiction. I can go there though and if we all get water....its just a little bit more than getting nasty greasy fast food. So yeah went there again tonight. What can I say I'm lazy. I need to get groceries. Hopefully tomorrow. Oh I also sold girlscout cookies for 3 hours today. More for sale if anyone's interested!

The boss is going away for a week a "pizza convention" in Vegas. While the cats away....;) I am feeling almost normal now. I hate being sick. Not sure what was wring with me....because as if yet, knock on wood, no one else has gotten sick. Strange.

 Ah whatever. My excuse this time. I've been sick. Like I actually missed work sick, sick. Sucks. Mom's arent really allowed to get sick. I was so sick yesterday that Tim took the night off work to stay home and care for the kids. So very sweet of him. That way they were able to get to church and all that, while I laid in bed and did nothing.  Today I went back to work, I feel ok but not 100 percent. Moving around makes it worse, so by the end of the day I was more than ready to clock out, come home, and relax? Uh not so much.  Today I flipped out on Destiny. She went out, promising to be home at 9 but then didn't have the ride. I went off, this is the second time. So now she's pissed, not even eating dinner... I can look back already and realize she's not done anything MAJOR but even so if you don't have a ride, tell me that up front not AT 9. I over reacted, and she didn't care about the rules set. Nothing new there.  I swear when she was born, I nev

That the Lord has made. Rejoice and be glad in it. Today was a nice day. Spring like still. The kids played outside. Bailey and his friend let Hannah tag along with them. Promise shared her bike with Hannah. Life was good today. On our way home from taking baileys friend home I saw this beautiful sunset. Almost made me sad our home is so IN the city. Sunsets just don't look the same!

It shouldn't just be a boyscout motto. In everything if your prepared, its much easier to deal with shit hitting the fan....and if shit doesn't hit the fan....Oh well, works done...sit back and relax! Work was not fun today. I was nice and came in for an afternoon party where the dumb adults stood IN MY WAY the entire time, dispute my 100 excuse me's. I was asked to work that evening as well... And everything was screwed. Nothing was ready. A party was written down for the wrong time, I got everyone mad at me for calling in the "big guns" Oh well such is life. Today is a new day.

So the boss is back, minus an appendix of course. Tonight all was back to normal. The loud silliness, the sexual harassment, all back to how it was.... Fun. It was a slow night at work, I got to leave early. I also get two work 3 parties tomorrow, all while hoping my kids allow each other to live while I am away. Destinys boyfriend fixed my oven drawer. I am totally stoned that she found a man with mechanical abilities.... You go girl. Now that I am starting to like the boy....Nah, she's twitterpated. LOL.

It already feels like spring out. Sun shining, birds chirping, breeze blowing....and flowers blooming! I cannot wait to beautify my yard... I hope its nice this weekend and I can start. Ahhhh. Springtime. Longer, warm sun filled days. Kids outside on bikes, picnics, I can't wait!

I love my husband. Sometimes when.he's at work I miss him so bad....and sometimes when he's home....I just.wish he'd leave. I'd be lying if I said I still got butterflies when he walked into the room.... Maybe some people still feel that after 9 or more years, and awesome. When I think of my life and what lies ahead for me....he's included in every dream. I can't picture not.coming home to him...needing to talk and having no one there. I am so happy to have him in my life....even.when he's a grump and furrowing his brow, he's my grump and I'm glad.

I'm not sick. I'm just lazy. Ok I don't feel good and I definitely didn't feel like preparing dinner... You would have thought I had kicked the kids to the curb, when I told them to make themselves something... They are old enough to use the stove, oven and microwave....so get to it....and make mama something while your in there! Hannah did. Dinner in bed for sick mama. I'm a lucky lady. Sleepy time for me now.

Work was uneventful. Just busy enough to make some money. Got some more cookies delivered. Went thrift store shopping with my mama. Made dinner, and my mom took 2 kids to the library. That was nice. I have a dumb headache and some sort of cold trying to creep up on me. I'll have none of that Dammit!

 Yeah yeah yeah. I have slacked in my daily blog. Sometimes I think nothing really interesting happened, and its not worth blogging. I have found though, that doing it anyway usually something oddly comical comes out along the way.  So today what made me realize I had not blogged, was when I was taking a break from cleaning, to play a round or two of "UNO" with Hannah. I noticed something sticky on the coffee table. I asked her to bring me a wet paper towel so I could clean it up. She brought me a "half square" size cloth. I said wow... Don't go crazy on the paper towel. she replied with "Well its BOUNTY right!?".  ahhh commercials!  My aunt is moving. She sold her house and bought a new one, its another town away. Not right down the road like she is now. Today she stopped by with the kids on a walk, something she wont be able to do any more here soon. Something I will certainly miss. I love her, her kids and its nice knowing they are so close by

So after 3 days off work, a bit had changed. My boss is in the hospital with appenicitus...had to have surgery and all that fun stuff. So work is a bit strange. No one to tell me I'm annoying or that my hair looks nice... Either way. It's work. Girlscout cookies are in, so now my job is to deliver, and collect cash. Fun times! Other than that, life at home is as normal as normal has ever been around here.  Made buffalo chicken soup for dinner the other night. It will be a new added in the rotation recipe, for sure.

Today I had my 3rd day, in a row, off of work. The kids all had physicals so that they could attend camp. Promise and bailey have a hole in their ear drum other than that...clean bill of health. I know how lucky our family really is to have four healthy, beautiful, and wonderful children. So of course we missed school lunch and I had to force down taco bell as lunch....why is the mt. Dew there so damn good? It was a well rounded day. Got groceries...trying out 3 new recipes this week. Dyed destinys hair, again. It hasn't fallen out yet. And we had breakfast for dinner. Numnum!