The oddly normal life of Clorie

Sometimes I look back to ten years ago...three....Sometimes even looking at the day before....I look back at it....realizing I made it through and think now....hay that wasn't so bad...what was I so stressed out abou? But in the now. Living it. That moment....it all seems so daunting, never ending....frightening. I just hope when I look back later, at times like this.... I am proud of the fact that I survived.... If I survive. Ha! Happy new year to all.... My husband is on his way home with drinks for us and bubbly juice for the kids. I just wonder if I will even make it....till midnight!

 The year that is. Crazy. Already almost over. I cannot believe it. Christmas came and went in the blink of an eye this year. The kids were happy with what they got and I think I got them mostly needs, and then a few big things we can all enjoy together. No one was upset with that, so its awesome.  So what has been going on in my crazy normal life? Same ole same ole mostly. Another one bit the dust at work, almost 2. Almost. A little ass kissing brought it back down to just one down. I am happy with my job at the moment, as I normally am for the most part.  Life is good at home. The two oldest kids used break to get out of the house as much as possible so far.... I had heard plans of them going to the other families for Christmas, and even Thanksgiving as they loomed closer no one ever mentioned anything so I guess it was a no go, obviously.Whatever. The girls have been hanging out with friends, and the oldest the boyfriend, who now moved less than a block away (yee haw).  The hu

 First off, my favorite customers coming in. I told them about my blog and so just in case they read it, I want them to be mentioned...They know who they are!  This morning, it snowed, and school WAS NOT canceled.  On my way home from work, there was a little girl getting of the bus, her mom and dog were waiting on her. When she stepped off the bus that dog was so very happy to see her. Jumping up and down, tail wagging. It made me smile.  THEN on my way to take my hubby to work I saw a very bright red cardinal on a tree, it was so bright red against the dusting of snow we got (that also made me smile, because it looks so pretty and wintery out!) on my way back from dropping him off, that cardinal was still there, still looking beautiful.  Then coming home, to my cozy warm house with the fire going, and the dishes all done because my hubby was a good boy. All those things today, made me happy. Hope the rest of the day is just as good!

Last night at dinner I told Bailey "Bailey....sometimes it's inconsiderate to be rude." That's right. Remember that!

Now I am asked to leave the room. Today is a hard and emotional day for me. Not something I can really give detailed info about....but my baby is growing up. That's rough. I remember when she would fall....she'd get up and run right to me for comfort. When she was sick, hungry, cold, sad, I was always there....I'm still here....but I am no longer who she runs too. Now she runs to friends...even other mom's usually before she comes to me. She still comes to me when it's important though I guess... when it really matters. It's hard to let go...that bond coming apart....it was easy for her....but all that glue residue is stuck to me....a sad reminder that my baby is growing up.