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Its almost over...

 The year that is. Crazy. Already almost over. I cannot believe it. Christmas came and went in the blink of an eye this year. The kids were happy with what they got and I think I got them mostly needs, and then a few big things we can all enjoy together. No one was upset with that, so its awesome.

 So what has been going on in my crazy normal life? Same ole same ole mostly. Another one bit the dust at work, almost 2. Almost. A little ass kissing brought it back down to just one down. I am happy with my job at the moment, as I normally am for the most part.

 Life is good at home. The two oldest kids used break to get out of the house as much as possible so far.... I had heard plans of them going to the other families for Christmas, and even Thanksgiving as they loomed closer no one ever mentioned anything so I guess it was a no go, obviously.Whatever. The girls have been hanging out with friends, and the oldest the boyfriend, who now moved less than a block away (yee haw).

 The husband is still grumpy all the time, the crease marks between his eyebrows prove that. I wonder sometimes if he's ever really happy inside. He says he is, but he certainly doesn't act as if he is. I just do my best to keep myself happy. After all if mama ain't happy....

 About being happy. I really am. Sometimes I think I shouldnt be. Like I am settling for less, and happy with it. Like when someone mentions one day I will get a "real job" I think, maybe I should strive for more... more than a server job... but then in the same breath, I think why? I make money to pay my bills and I like my job and I am happy there... So why should I strive for more, when what I already have... is everything that I need?

 I am not sure how that works, like you should always reach for the stars, but if your in space, well then hmmm. Just pondering.

 Lets see, I have one really good best friend and she never really bothers to talk to me anymore, when she does it is just a random text... Oddly enough that does not really bother me. I think I am different and I am changing and that is not really such a bad thing. I have my mom, and my aunt, and my husband and my children and I have me time at work and that is really all I feel that I need. Maybe I should reach higher but currently I feel like I am just as high as I need to be. Anyway I am afraid of heights! :)

 So with a New Year approching I of course have goals. Not to further my career, but to of course lose weight, just like everyone else in the world. The slim fast shakes are already lining the isles of walmart along with the sales on workout equipment. I will follow the trend and home to lose some weight.

 I would also like to be a better parent, of course. I am not the best, and I yell and I do not follow through like I should. So that would be a goal as well.

 Oh yes and my silly just for fun, never actually do goals: 365 picture taking (yes again) and... To keep up with this damn blog! HA! Happy New Year!

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