I used to be the one she ran to....

Now I am asked to leave the room. Today is a hard and emotional day for me. Not something I can really give detailed info about....but my baby is growing up. That's rough.

I remember when she would fall....she'd get up and run right to me for comfort. When she was sick, hungry, cold, sad, I was always there....I'm still here....but I am no longer who she runs too.

Now she runs to friends...even other mom's usually before she comes to me. She still comes to me when it's important though I guess... when it really matters. It's hard to let go...that bond coming apart....it was easy for her....but all that glue residue is stuck to me....a sad reminder that my baby is growing up.

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