The oddly normal life of Clorie

After getting up late (snooze button my best friend/worst enemy)  working 5 hours I thought I'd stop by the grocery on my way home. Its the day hubby and I met (14 years ago)  and I thought I'd get him flowers....and I needed salad to go with dinner. As I walked in...a nice looking young man nodded my direction and said hello. I smiled and nodded back. As I walked off I thought I heard him say something so I turned around....he was walking up to me. He asked me my name then told me his (Mario if it matters)  and told me how CUTE I was as he reached out a hand to shake. I smiled, shook his hand and thanked him for the compliment. He then asked what he could do,  to make it so that he could see me again sometime .... I'm married I told him. Of course you are...your too cute to NOT BE!  he said. I thanked him again,  for making my day! And got my salad and flowers for the love of my life....whom I met today 14 years ago! 

So bailey was trying to swap out the pedals on his bike,  he striped the screw and needed his daddy's help. Tim was all....what's all over your bike bailey? "Cooking spray " what?  You don't use cooking spray on your bike.  "Oh well mom told me it might help" bailey said. Oh....well go get it for me then.  Hahahaha.

Since I had my first child my whole world has revolved around them. Everything I've done was with their comfort safety and happiness in mind. When getting a job. Made sure the hours were so I didn't miss out on time with them. Buying a car made sure it was safe for them. Would fit them proporly.  Our home. Made sure it was close to everything we needed..... large enough for everyone's comfort. Had enough bedrooms. My paychecks. Maybe I need new jeans....if the kids need em. Guess who gets them first? Every detail of my life revolves around the kids FIRST. As it should be. I am a mom afterall. I don't mind them being first. When I however am told BY THOSE children that they are put last,  or I am Taken for Granted for aall that I Do....well it sucks. Motherhood sometimes SUCKS. HOWEVER ill keep on keeping on. With the promise from other mothers before me that "one day" ill be appreciated. Although I will probably be too mentally exhausted by then to care.

Not the elldest. The boy.  Go figure. It actually ended well...and he told me on his own that tomorrow he's apologizing to her. Today was a crazy full day. I'm glad today is over. 

 Ya know. I fly off the handle. I say dumb shit. I have cussed at my kids. They sometimes stay up too late. I yell, Ive spanked and I've handled things incorrectly so many times I don't remember half of them. I was thinking about it today when I once again flipped out on them... They were being bratty brats and I am stressed out... and I took it out on them, yelling and telling them they were ungrateful and just how stressed I was, and why... Which is not their problem its mine. Either way its what I did. So I calmed down... Put my big girl panties on and took them all over hell and back to do all the things that needed done this very busy Thursday afternoon. I was at the hair place, when I realized... Ya know I am not the most horrible mother there is. Im not even a bad mom.  We are broke. Super broke. Like negative balance in the bank... BROKE... None the less... My kids had supper on the table.... They have a roof over their heads... They are clean... They are HAPPY (Asi

  You know the way a girl gets when she turns 17... Kinda crazy.  A quote from a song. Never knew how true it could be. When I was 17 I was a mother to an 1 year old baby girl. I never knew when that baby girl was 17 my life, would suck. Or seem to suck. Or her life sucks and it makes mine suck? I don't know how it sucks or why but it does.  I might not have the best of all things. Like I said I was a young mom. I have worked, and worked HARD to get where I am today. Yes I was on assistance, yes I still am being assisted. There are times I have to get a loan from my mother to buy something unexpected. Yes my in laws loaned us money to buy our van 2 years ago and were still paying them back when any actual car place would have repossessed  the damn thing by now. Yes I've went to food banks, and I shop at Goodwill. But I have NEVER stolen or lied or cheated my way into anything.  I  might be "just a waitress" but I always do my best. I work hard and I am thankful