Its a crazy thing. I must admit there are things I am addicted to. The computer for one. I love to get online see what everyone on facebook is up to... Play my frontierville game (meaningless mindless but still fun) My cellphone. I love the darn thing and feel lost the seldom few times I neglect to take it with me... Diet coke. I love it. Its tasty bubbly and calorie free. I know it has horrible chemicals in it,and its bad for me, but I drink it regardless. I have quit and I can quit, but I just don't want to. I guess that is how addictions work.
Thankfully I am not addicted to anything too stupid. At one time I smoked cigarettes. I quit, and it was really without issues. I am more addicted to diet coke, than I was to cigarettes, and now, I cannot stand them, I cannot believe I ever used to be a "smoker" that I used to smell that way.
Anyway. Addiction. I have never been addicted to anything really harmful, or had to watch someone go through a gut wrenching addiction... Until this year. At work, I think were dealing with addiction. Our boss. She makes long, unexpected trips to the bathroom at work lately. She has her "highs" and then her "lows" and recently lets just say the aluminum foil tends to get used up much faster than normal... Its been confirmed in my head and other co workers. We've had proof and went over her head with it just to pretty much be teased about it.
Until today. Apparently word has gotten around enough that its being brought to her attention now. She asked me today if I ever talked about or heard anyone saying she was on drugs. It was just her and I in the building, and I wanted to be honest and tell her yes, that I think she has a problem, that I am certain she does drugs, and does them at work while on the clock. What I told her was "no." Because I am a chicken shit. Because it was just her and I in the building. Because I do not like confrontation. Because I want to see the side of her that is not addicted, the funny happy, grandparent, mother who is proud of her daughter for going to college, the lady who baked us Christmas cookies. The boss who knows the customers orders, and makes certain pizzas specially for them. The silly lady that sings songs in the morning... Then I wonder, is that the addicted boss I know, or her real self? Addiction sucks. I do so hope for her sake that she can realize this, and take the steps to do something about it.
So I have been drinking less diet coke, and more water and iced tea. My addiction might not be overwhelming or mood altering but its an addiction none the less, and I should try to better myself by not drinking it. I should also be more honest and stand up for my opinion and tell people like it is. I always look up to people who can be honest, even when the honest answer is not the one someone wants to hear... Its refreshing and so bold.
Thankfully I am not addicted to anything too stupid. At one time I smoked cigarettes. I quit, and it was really without issues. I am more addicted to diet coke, than I was to cigarettes, and now, I cannot stand them, I cannot believe I ever used to be a "smoker" that I used to smell that way.
Anyway. Addiction. I have never been addicted to anything really harmful, or had to watch someone go through a gut wrenching addiction... Until this year. At work, I think were dealing with addiction. Our boss. She makes long, unexpected trips to the bathroom at work lately. She has her "highs" and then her "lows" and recently lets just say the aluminum foil tends to get used up much faster than normal... Its been confirmed in my head and other co workers. We've had proof and went over her head with it just to pretty much be teased about it.
Until today. Apparently word has gotten around enough that its being brought to her attention now. She asked me today if I ever talked about or heard anyone saying she was on drugs. It was just her and I in the building, and I wanted to be honest and tell her yes, that I think she has a problem, that I am certain she does drugs, and does them at work while on the clock. What I told her was "no." Because I am a chicken shit. Because it was just her and I in the building. Because I do not like confrontation. Because I want to see the side of her that is not addicted, the funny happy, grandparent, mother who is proud of her daughter for going to college, the lady who baked us Christmas cookies. The boss who knows the customers orders, and makes certain pizzas specially for them. The silly lady that sings songs in the morning... Then I wonder, is that the addicted boss I know, or her real self? Addiction sucks. I do so hope for her sake that she can realize this, and take the steps to do something about it.
So I have been drinking less diet coke, and more water and iced tea. My addiction might not be overwhelming or mood altering but its an addiction none the less, and I should try to better myself by not drinking it. I should also be more honest and stand up for my opinion and tell people like it is. I always look up to people who can be honest, even when the honest answer is not the one someone wants to hear... Its refreshing and so bold.
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