The oddly normal life of Clorie

 I wonder about God. I wonder how everyone says "God will never give you more than you can handle" I have been given some hurdles in life, and sure, I got through them, but did I really handle them the way they should have been handled? Sometimes I am pretty sure, even though I made it through, it was indeed more, than I could handle.  The main example of this. My children. Four. Seriously? God? Did you really see in me, someone with the patience for four children? Some days, no, that is a lie, MOST days, I do not feel worthy. Most days I am certain I have failed somewhere  Somehow every day I make a mistake, sure sometimes its a small one, but sometimes its a major one and I wonder... What was God thinking???  I just hope I guess, on that day that I make my way to the top (I hope I go to the top) that God explains to me exactly what his plan was for me, and I hope he tells me I got it somewhat right, even though I felt like I was messing up 90% of the time. ...

 My boo. Bailey-Boo our little nickname for him once he grew out of the "monkey toes" he had as a newborn.  Bailey was born on a very stormy afternoon. Thunder was going on outside, and there I was stuck in a hospital bed, watching a baby story on TLC which the nurses all called me crazy for. Call me crazy all you want, birth, giving birth and just the idea of it, is awesome to me. Giving birth myself I still cannot believe that a new life, was created from within my own body.  Bailey was born sound asleep. After some complications with his oldest sister, not hearing him cry made me a bit nervous. "Why isn't he crying?" I asked a bit panicked. The doctor just held him in his arms, still between my legs and told me, calmly "He's just sleepin'" Well wake him up!!!  That is kind of how Bailey went from then on. A pretty laid back kid for the most part. He liked to eat, he liked to sleep, he liked to play and learned early to walk and crawl...

 In my family. It seems that lately all anyone does is bite each others heads off. I know deep down everyone loves one another but what happened to showing it? Sometimes you have to show it.  I try to communicate with my husband and he acts mad. I try to communicate with my fourteen year old and she thinks I am nosy its none of my business. Funny, here I thought it was. I am starting to think I should just shut up.  Life is rough right now. I am certain it could be rougher, but I am also certain it could be so very much easier as well. That is life for you. I know I should not complain but yet, I do. I am human and I complain.  I guess moms should be super human and never think of their own needs or wants, and sometimes I see moms that are that way and I think what a great mother they are, then I wonder how they do it, without taking time for themselves? How do you not just break down?  I feel very broken right now. I need time to myself, I feel like I n...

 So after my quite low electric bill last month I was trying so very hard to put off turning on the A/C. I mean my bill was less than HALF of what it normally is!!! So far May had been unseasonably cool. Stormy and rain. So I had no problem with this AC not on thing... Until this weekend. upper 80's swung in, and humidity along with it... By evening its pretty darn hot in the house... So I caved. Just for the "peak times" I told myself...  Well guess what is NOT working correctly??? If you said the AC your right! (you get a cookie) So now were suffering and sweating. LUCKILY though, we have a meager 2 weeks, well just a bit over, on our home warranty! So for 50.00 they can come out and take a look, and fix it. Whew. Well hopefully fix it for that deductible. If something needs replaced and is not up to code we do have to pay the extra to bring it up to current codes. Our new water heater, cost us just over 200.00 to install.  Hopefully its an easy fix, and hopefully t...

 Not so much in a bad way either. For once. Everything seemed to go right today. Or nearly so.  Lets see, my dentist drill was today. I was having problems with the tooth NEXT to the tooth I was getting my crown put on, and this worried me... Turns out nothing is wrong with said tooth, its just sensitive from all the poking and prodding that was done for the crown to be started, and the gums are inflamed. I got some mouth wash stuff that should help! :) He did an Xray to be sure and gave me the mouthwash and no extra cost, which was lovely.  The van has been wobbling, badly. Got new (used new) tires today on it, for under 200.00 and now... NO wobbles! WOOT!  Got home from the dentists and Thing 1 had cleaned both kids bedrooms, started a load of laundry and even somewhat put up the folded clothes... Wow?  Had a nice dinner w/o fuss or fighting and then, well after that it kind of went down hill. Turns out thing 4 wants to be adopted. "WHY DONT YOU JUST A...

 Somehow, nearly fourteen years have passed by in just the blink of an eye. How does that happen? My first born, that little round headed fat baby girl, is turning into a fourteen year old, matured almost woman in just eight short days. I do not quite understand how this happened.  Just the other day when I went to give her some clothes at a friends because she was staying the night, as she walked up to the van I swear, it was like those commercials you see on TV. For a moment there she was, walking towards me, a little girl, like 3 and slowly right before my eyes and she got closer, she grew and it was just crazy.  She seems like a pretty level headed child. For the most part. As far as I can see. She's a little snot to Tim and I but to her teachers, and other adults she is normally very respectful. She has shown so much improvement this year on her school work, so much in fact that her teacher sent me an email just to tell me how much she had improved.  I can...

 I hear this all the time from the kids. I took this one to the store, and not that one. This one got a baseball at the baseball game that one didn't. This one got her first phone at 12 so the other cant get it sooner, that would be unfair .  My response, almost always, is: Life, is unfair. Get over it.  You know what though. I totally agree. Its not fair. Lots of stuff is not fair, and it sucks. Life or not, it sucks.  The boo is sick. Came home feeling bad. Red cheeks, fever, stuffy nose. Its a cold. I am certain of it. The weather has been crazy this week, mid 40's up to almost 90's all in the same week. Everyone is bound to be a bit stuffed up right? I am so NOT that mom, who rushes kids to the doctor for a sniffle...  But this is the Boo. It's Bailey. When he gets sick, I worry. When his legs bother him and its more than likely growing pains, I think the worst. When his cheeks get flushed with fever, I remember those steriods and how rosy he was whe...