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Where is the love?

 In my family. It seems that lately all anyone does is bite each others heads off. I know deep down everyone loves one another but what happened to showing it? Sometimes you have to show it.

 I try to communicate with my husband and he acts mad. I try to communicate with my fourteen year old and she thinks I am nosy its none of my business. Funny, here I thought it was. I am starting to think I should just shut up.

 Life is rough right now. I am certain it could be rougher, but I am also certain it could be so very much easier as well. That is life for you. I know I should not complain but yet, I do. I am human and I complain.

 I guess moms should be super human and never think of their own needs or wants, and sometimes I see moms that are that way and I think what a great mother they are, then I wonder how they do it, without taking time for themselves? How do you not just break down?

 I feel very broken right now. I need time to myself, I feel like I need more and more time. I feel like the time I am with my kids I do not enjoy anymore. They are always fighting and ungreatful for everything they get or that we go and do. So I feel like what is the point?

 The point is, I am mom and I am supposed to put up with this. I have no other option. I have to pull this together and make it work. I feel like I am failing at my job. A job where failure is NOT really an option... So "man up" clorie. Get over yourself and go out there and make the best of out what you have.

 I know its my attitude that starts theirs. I need to get over myself and enjoy life, the good, the bad, and the ugly.

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