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Some day....

 Some day she will have children of her own, and she will call me up and tell me what she is going through. I will listen and I will give advice and on the inside I will be screaming "HA PAYYYYYYYYYYYY BACK"

 Without going into detail, my teenager is driving me crazy. I give very short, simple rules I am not super strict and even the small simple 2 part rules I ask of her, she cannot follow. So I have decided I cannot do anything that causes me to go above and beyond for her any longer. Meals, a warm place to sleep, and things to clean herself and clothes along with love. That is all I am by law entitled to give. Until she can give me extra, she gets no extra from me.

 The rules I have set are:

 Text when you change locations.
 Be home or inside where your staying, by 11pm
 I want to talk to a parent, of the friend who's house you will be at for the night, and I would like that friends address.

 Tonight I did not get one of those things. Tonight phones are shut off. Here I sit at 2am wondering if my child is really where she says she is. Hoping and praying she is okay. Upon looking up her phone bill I can see she has made calls to others, but ignored my texts, and incoming calls. I guess since she is unable to use the phone, she does not need it any longer.

 So I guess I changed my mind and did go into detail.I couldn't help it. She is stressing me out. So tonight I pray Lord, please keep my daughter safe and out of trouble. Please let it weigh heavy on her heart that she has caused me worry and concern. Please let her realize I am not just being a jerk, that it is my JOB as her parent, to know where she is and keep her safe. Also Lord please be with her tomorrow when she comes home... For she will have to deal with mama. :o/

 Amen.

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