Its not possible to be there, every second of every moment of every day. Its just not. You cannot keep every bump from happening. The fact of life is, at some point in time, no matter how close of an eye you keep, no matter if you keep them in arms reach or just beyond, they will fall.
When they fall, as a parent you always blame yourself. If I had just been there five seconds sooner. If I had just not let them go. What if I had wrapped them in bubble tape??? The fact is, the world is a big, and scary place. At some point, weather you like it or not, your children are going to venture out into it. Sometimes with you, and sometimes, alone.
You have to let them go. I am pretty sure its against the law to keep them locked up and within arms reach after a certain age. Its hard to let go, and its even harder when they fall and you were not there to catch them. I want to be there, arms open for every fall... I need to accept the fact that I cannot be. I am not sure if I ever will be able to accept it, or not blame myself for the bruises when they fall, without being caught.
Parenthood. The hardest job you will ever love.
When they fall, as a parent you always blame yourself. If I had just been there five seconds sooner. If I had just not let them go. What if I had wrapped them in bubble tape??? The fact is, the world is a big, and scary place. At some point, weather you like it or not, your children are going to venture out into it. Sometimes with you, and sometimes, alone.
You have to let them go. I am pretty sure its against the law to keep them locked up and within arms reach after a certain age. Its hard to let go, and its even harder when they fall and you were not there to catch them. I want to be there, arms open for every fall... I need to accept the fact that I cannot be. I am not sure if I ever will be able to accept it, or not blame myself for the bruises when they fall, without being caught.
Parenthood. The hardest job you will ever love.
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