You always want what you cannot have...

No one ever really seems completely happy with life. With their hair, teeth, body, money situation. You name it. Something is always wrong somewhere.

I am no better. I look at pictures of me with my hair short, and wish I could chop it off, then when its short, I look at pictures of it long and wish it would grow. I think I am fat, and see pictures of me at 140 thinking how thin I look, but I remember being 140 and thinking I was fat still.

It makes me wonder if I can ever just be happy? With my hair, my body, my family, with life. Can anyone TRULY just be happy?

Don't get me wrong. I am happy I am satisfied with life. Does that mean I don't look at the other side of the fence, or wonder what if? No. I still do that, I think that everyone does. Why?

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Time Flies

A year ago today my best friend gave birth to her second little boy. TWO years ago tomorrow my first granddaughter was born. Both seem like yesterday, but also so long ago. Two years in a row almost on the same day I got to watch the miracle of life happen... I have done it myself four times, but it never ceases to amaze me. To watch it is just amazing that our body does that. GROWS someone in side of us and then gets that someone OUT. Just amazing. Life is stressing me out right now however, I am trying to take this weekend to just tune out anything and everything that is getting to me, just have fun, go to birthday parties, eat cake and not worrry. Not worry about bills or calories or my steps (I even took my fit bit off) Just be me, just enjoy what there is in life to enjoy. My amazing friends, and my crazy family and the hot summer weather.

So Whats up with my oddly normal life?

Huh huh? Cus it seems that I am never ever updating my blog these days. I am such a sloth! Things happen and I think how I should blog about them and then I figure they are not really so interesting if you were not here. Then I remember I blog for me, not really for someone else. I want to be able to remember things, to come back and go oh yeah... Those were the days. Or whatever. I can't do that if I don't blog it. I am going to try to be more regular with the blogs again, even if its what I made for dinner, and how my husband kept me up snoring. If it doesn't interest you, you don't have to read it right!? :) So whats been going on? the kids are growing. I got contacts, I am not sure how I feel about them just yet. Sometimes they are great, and sometimes I feel like I have an eye full of hair. Sometimes I can see great with them in, and other times everything is blurrier than when I had them out. Meanwhile I wear my scratched up glasses while ...

Its not always 50/50

Sometimes one person has to hold up more weight than the other does. Lately I feel as though I am that person holding the extra weight. Lately I have been wishing I was not that person. I feel like I am being spread a bit too thin... I also feel like no matter how many times I try to explain myself, it does not matter. So I will just keep waiting, and hopefully eventually someone will come and take a few books off of my stack. Take a load off. Help me out. Chip in. You get it? I am sure you do. Now if only other people did as well. God doesnt give you more than you can handle. I wonder sometimes if He thinks the load he's giving me is being more evenly distributed than it is... Maybe he can review my case :)

The oddly normal life of Clorie

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