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What have you done for me lately?

I was told today by one of my children...I do nothing for her. this prompted me to compile a quick list- just what I can think of off the top of my head.

Lets see well start with

★ carried you inside my own body for 9+ months. Eating well,  sleeping well, not drinking or smoking and ttaking vitimans that made me gag.
★ THIRTY SIX HOURS of labor and pushing...your head by the way was OVER the 100 percentile in size (larger than most)
★ I awoke every time you did, for at least 6 months that was more than once per night.
★wiped your butt. Changed your clothes. Cleaned your vomit.
★ Dr visits. One well ccheck per year, not to mention ER visits in the middle of the night when Dr was closed
★ taught you to walk, talk, count, your body parts, animal sounds, numbers, answered all your "why's" (there were a lot! )
★signed you up for sschool. Made sure you were dressed fed and ready. Worried if you remembered your lunch code, did you make friends, were kids being nice to you, were you being nice, did you eat your lunch, did you find your bus
★ threw you birthday parties,  took you to friend birthday parties. Bought gifts for both.
★ help with homework, projects, take you to library bought school supplies
★ clothed you and got you new shoes for 16 years. Pads tampons makeup hairstuff haircuts. I not only took you to get those things....but paid. For. Them too.
★kept a. Steady job. A. Consistent roof over your head and all the needed bills on. Even paid for your cell service for 3 years.
★ Took you to apply for jobs. To interviews. To and from work. Bought you work clothes.
★last but certainly not least I have came and gotten you ON MORE THAN ONE OCCASION when you were in trouble. Had I not come and "bailed you out" so to speak....you wouldn't have been at home in your own bed those nights.
★taking you to court tomorrow and to a lawyers last week.

Your right though. I don't do anything for you. This house is HORRIBLE your on the verge of abused daily and I don't care about you one little bit. That is obvious in all the things I dont do for you.

Life sucks now?  Wait till your eighteen!

I became a mom very young. I missed a lot of. Opportunities for myself. never once. Have I. Wished to change a thing. Never once have I felt ANY of my children were mistakes.

I got my GED. I got married. I cook healthy meals. I saved and budget so that we have a roof over our heads. Quite frankly I feel I do a LOT and what's more....even when no one notices, or no one cares, or when you hate me for having "stupid rules" when your lying, in trouble, slamming a door in my face or bad mouthing me to your boyfriend....I always love you....just as much as I loved you the day you were born. The day my life changed forever because that day I knew what a mothers love felt like.

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